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Oct. 23rd, 2008 @ 11:23 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: Pure ~~ Superchick
i'm not sure if anyone's around, but..thought i'd post anyway, i really need some help. :(
i think i just want some other's thoughts on it, some grown-up's opinions? because my parents sure can't help me here....
i was raised by jehovah's witnesses, i won't recount my leaving story, but i've been very anti-christian for about 6 years because of their whole..screwed up...religion/cult/whatever you want to call it.
now i'm 21 and....i'm not sure exactly what i believe anymore. i believe some parts of christianity, and then i have my personal beliefs, what my roommate calls my "hippie stuff" haha, like ...nature and fairies and using herbs and crystals...and talking alot about energies and THE UNIVERSE hahahaha, uhm...but yeah..i've repressed any of my beliefs that leaned toward christianity, i want to look into them again, but it feels weird. even if it's something i believe i feel awkward, or like an impostor, or outsider, like i shouldn't be saying words like 'god' or 'angel' or like...well i wrote down this quote in my diary recently

"I know I'm medicating
I know you've been praying
I know that God is waiting
Something tells me he can't save me"
-'Veins' by Nikki Sixx

like i feel like an outsider
or like if there is a god i don't deserve to ever know him/her/it because..while i've always been a very spiritual person, anytime my beliefs started to seem a little too...christian-ish i'd get all freaked out, so i've always felt like something was missing but have been too afraid to fix it. and i've also felt like i shouldn't be allowed to fix it and fill this void because i'm bad and don't deserve to be happy or spiritually fulfilled, like god wouldn't want me anyway.
have any of you left "the truth"(LULZ) and gone on to find faith in other christian religions, or anything similar to that?
i know i could never be like some super devout christian and go to church and stuff, since my beliefs are more like..a...a fusion of everything hahahaha, and also i doubt any church would accept me (i'm a smoker, drinker, lesbian, punk rocker and recreational drug user...XD) but...i just...i don't know
i want to know if someone else has been able to embrace their faith again without it feeling wrong and awkward because this "Jehovah" hates us all now. :/
i hope i'm not talking in nonsense or circles. i'm just really confused and stuff, and i always feel really dumb asking for help on this subject.:(
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May. 18th, 2007 @ 04:10 am (no subject)
So, does no one post here anymore?
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Oct. 22nd, 2006 @ 05:57 pm looking for local support?
I've had the good fortune to find a local group of Ex-JWs through a site called meetup.com. There are groups all over the country, and although I haven't been to a 'meeting' yet, I'm looking foward to getting together with these people.

Hope everyone's doing alright.

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curly tori
Sep. 19th, 2006 @ 11:20 am (no subject)
The talk origins archive goes into much that the JWs do not tell you about the Bible...

As the site explains, one can be a 'Theistic evolutionist', ie, someone who believes that God created the Universe through purely natural physical forces, and guided the developement of life.

Certainly, the physical evidence shows that the flood of Noah's day was a local affair that entered folklore and was used by the Bible writers to make a moral point.

From that, all else follows.
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Wanna bettaworld
Sep. 19th, 2006 @ 10:35 am (no subject)
I am an ex JW myself, and have been 'out' for decades.
Since leaving , I have come to know more about the organisation I have left (Beth Sarim, for instance). I am willing to share this if asked.

Naturally, I want to help people newly left or contemplating leaving. Not just on issues of doctrine, but the whole bit about finding new friends and coping with relatives. I have been there, done thatand bought the tee shirt!

Just dropping in to say 'hi' and am willing to friend an support anyone who is having a tough time getting out or staying out. BFN.
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Wanna bettaworld
Mar. 25th, 2006 @ 11:07 pm Religious paths
Just a curiosity... what religious paths if any, have any of you fellow ex-JWs gone to? And what is your attitude toward religion?

I'm 27, it fell apart for me at 22, and after five years of floundering through the occult with an open mind, seem to be settling on a mix of Asian spiritual paths and Romuva-- Lithuanian pre-Christian spirituality. I take my worldview as a work in progress, keeping what's useful, what meshes with my own experience, and discarding what isn't.

Strangely enough, their bullshit did not wrack my faith in something in the universe giving a shit about me-- although it did sour me on Christianity for several years, and I still feel awkward around most devout Christians.
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Feb. 9th, 2006 @ 03:19 pm elo
Current Mood: thankfulthankful
How is everyone?
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Nov. 9th, 2005 @ 08:43 pm (no subject)
You might all be interested in this new journal. It shows many JW teachings to be incorrect.

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Oct. 14th, 2005 @ 07:28 pm Hello
I have been raised for years by Jehovah's Witnesses. My parents were both active members. My father at the age of me being 17 was disfellowshipped, and my mother continued.
I left the religion on and off for years after I reached about 16. I battle still with things that I was raised with.
My mother who has been in the "truth" for over 40 years has just left. She has proved through the bible many of their teachings to be false.
After years and years of believing in things, and nobody ever being able to prove them wrong, I am now at last getting to prove some of the things they teach are wrong, and they are bing proved via the bible.
What more could I want?

Hello to everyone who like me still battles with things mentally after this strong religous cult. May you be strong and may you learn like me to prove their teachings to be false so that you too can relax at last with knowing you are not going to be cast out forever after all.
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Sep. 11th, 2005 @ 04:16 am Hello
I just wanted to promote my favorite ex-JW (with the possible exception of that one night stand I had back in college - damn you ex-JW's are loud) jourdannex (who I never had a one night stand with and never met in person either) who is not only one of the funniest most articulate people on livejournal but is also featured in the anthology Teddy Bear Cannibal Massacre

That is all.
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